Fear.

Fear is a deadly thing.

Ever since I saw a viral video on Twitter f a homeless woman singing in the subway station, I began to worry about my money. Even though I have enough money under my account. A comment on the video said that she was a musician who had a lot of medical bills, got kicked out of her rent, and lost her violin worth ten of thousands. I don’t know if it’s the true story or not, but the point is, you can lose your money at any time, you can lose yourself at any time, and you may not be able to get up quickly enough. You might lose everything you have and you’ll never know when it will happen. This is my fear talking. Logically the spiritual way to overcome this is to think of God and how He won’t let you down. But fear is humane. I can’t stop fearing different scenarios and it’s hard to trust. I don’t even trust myself sometimes.

I might have to talk to someone about this.

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